Then and Now and In Between

I wanted to share some pictures of our precious Cannon!  We ask that you pray for our little love.  We are at nine days to surgery and counting down.  Although we have been that close once before with each passing day I just hold him and struggle with the why.  Why him?  Why my Cannon?  Why us?  Why this?  Why?  I also think of what is to come for our little man.  I had been so looking at surgery as once we got through that then it would be downhill from there, however, in reading through my support site the helmet is perhaps harder than the surgery itself. 

I am still so heartbroken in this moment. 

We pray that Cannon can stay well so that he will be granted the opportunity to have the surgery endoscopically. 

We pray that he will have a guardian angel there comforting him and protecting him during surgery. 

We pray that the surgeon's hands come one with God. 

We pray that Cannon's delicate body and brain will stay safe at the hands of the surgeon. 

We pray that complications are nonexistent. 

We pray that we can be strong for Cannon. 

We pray for a complete healing. 

We pray.

As a mother this is perhaps the hardest part. 

I feel like I can do nothing. 

Yet I can pray. 

"Father, please hear my cry.  Please heal my child.  Please spare him from this.  I will take this on.  I look at my son and I know you created him, you sent him to us from heaven above, and although I do not understand any of this I know that you are strong enough, you are bigger than this, we entrust our precious Cannon to you.  Please be there with him.  Please be here with us.  I ask this of you.  PLEASE hear our cry."

For when I am afraid, I will trust in you. ~Psalm 56:3~